hurting me

didn’t see…. I was choosing you over my… life and love and happiness. obsessed with all the ways you hurt me… blind in the pain and not wanting to fully see… the ways I alone was hurting me.    

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detriment

there was a time I couldn’t imagine my life without you… it was like imagining the day without the rain… I got used to the distance and the pain. didn’t know who I was without you… back then I couldn’t care enough about me to let my conscience guide me in being true…. sometimes we…

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worthy

it hurts me when you say those words to tear me to the ground. but when I left you…my own life and love, that’s what I found. your behaviors and actions are a reflection of you, not of me. fear and games, that’s all you choose to personally see. but you never appreciated all the…

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life returned

I guess growing up for me is… Realizing your heroes are flawed and human in every way… Leaving someone who is abusive and harmful to you…even when a part of you longs to stay. Knowing you can’t change anyone but yourself, when you’re the only one who can ask and accept outside help. Forgiving someone…

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direction of pain

who was the man behind the mask? even the girl I once was became too terrified to ask. but he did what he could… far from following the morals he should… still… how far do you walk in the direction of pain? letting go… when holding on could only be in vain.

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everything you have ever known

Intimately tied and wrapped up in my old ways of living… Never fully understood the trouble and harm it was ultimately giving… Made a choice to bravely embrace a permanent, lasting change. My own life in dire need of being newly arranged. Because what was familiar and “safe” in my mind… Became self destructive and…

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within you

thankful for the life I’m living… when it could be so much worse. sometimes you have to let go… trust in how life finds its own course. it’s funny what we take for granted… you just never know… had to lose almost everything in order to grow. you can see life as a burden or…

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a new day

she’s afraid of who she is… without the infection she grew up with. without the pain deeply woven into her heart and identity…. sometimes the most fearful dream is who we are when we finally… break free. because at some point the tears became a dependence… one comfortable and familiar… a kind of “safe” fall…

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into

dark and mysterious. but my heart no longer curious. with love and my life I’ve never been more serious. the words he’s saying…they sound a little delirious…. let them run endless schemes… fear and power no longer attractive as they once seemed. I’ll do me….you do you. you’re no longer what I’m about to get…

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finally be

my mistakes are beautiful tattoos across my bare skin… my flaws carve depth and meaning further in… there are moments I’m selfish in what I think I need… times I struggle not to give into the allure of fear and greed. the path towards love is bittersweet… when your true self you finally do meet.…

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