After Surviving

I still have those…dark kind of days. Still I struggle in moments to find my own way. Healing a heart is a journey of self love and care. Stripping the layers built in painful years. Broken pieces in memory and sometimes they are what I see. Fear and doubt always at the ready, but I…

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Always hurt

I could stay mad at you forever… The pain like needles pressing into my heart. But it will never bring me peace. Maybe it will always hurt… Turning my pain into a choice. I could stay in my own prison, Or let you go. I gave my past all the power. It’s time to take…

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Take the Lead

Even when I think I’m doing good…a second later I’m free falling. Why does it turn my world upside down when I see you calling… A pit in the bottom of my stomach and I can’t seem to get away. You’re grating on my nerves with every word and lyric you say. Sometimes it takes…

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Let you know

I don’t know how I arrived at this point… My desire to be loved made me never want to disappoint. But no child is perfect, no parent is ever fully prepared. Pain can control every facet of your life when you’re truly scared. In the past… I would have held on to the tears and…

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Commit

If this was my last day on earth, what would truly matter to me. Sometimes you have to take a step back and learn how to see it all differently. Thankful for the scars, as well as the tears. I learned more in the moments I faced my greatest of fears. Life is a gift,…

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One of Love

Nightmares and daydreams, only change depending on the point of view. I’ll think of you in everything I will ever say or do. But not in the way you were once used to. In a way, where I’m thankful for all the darkness you put me through. For it, made me look for another path…

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Putting on a show…

You call my name and all I can think about is what you want in return. Take another shot and we go around and around for another turn. I should have known better, now my mind zeros in to discern. Tell me again just how much you and him earn… Because you can’t put a…

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