only fear

I loved and I lost you… But I never had you… You were always miles and miles away… But how could I blame you. How could I hold anything against you. I held onto a person my mind created. I clung onto a hope my heart wanted. But love is so much more than a…

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disappeared

I held onto the fantasy for so long…the scenes blurred into reality…. Somewhere along the line…through your own eyes I could only see… And I stayed a child, helpless and dependent upon a hero who was broken underneath his medals… But I’m beginning to know and love the woman I’ve become…long after the dust has…

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gone

when you start to heal… the world you once knew looks completely different to your eyes… your heart now won’t put up with the manipulations and the lies… you find peace in the boundaries you set to stay healthy and happy in your own space… and you no longer have to fight to have love…

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supply

I won’t go back to the plays I once lived in… I won’t return to the place where I died within… The past has nothing to keep me anymore… Fear was never the reason I lived for… You try to drag me back… Eyes so dark I only see endless black. But I won’t let…

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never yours to hold

In his eyes… I was nothing. A pawn to be played. A doll meant only for display. Through his eyes… Love was a game. I was wild and he couldn’t keep me tamed. In his eyes… The world was fearful and dangerous. He made me believe everything was for us. In his eyes… People were…

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love knows the way

return me to a time of innocence… where my life and love made beautiful sense… and you can’t have the sunshine without the rain… my love wouldn’t be as deep without the tears and shades of pain… love knows the way… love knows the way…

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loves you

Some people want to break things…and other people. When they are more than shattered already… There’s despair behind their rage… Tears beneath the act that is perfectly staged… No excuses… Not saying it was right… Just everyone has their own battle and secret fight. A broken, twisted person… Will use and abuse anyone… But in…

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not him

it breaks my heart when… your words speak from my mouth. it shatters me when… i give life to your rage. sometimes you become the very person you hate. the one you obsess over. the one you beg and plead with to stay… as they continue to break you down. power and control. it’s all…

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Love Language

In healing from you…I have to be careful not to become you. Because hate is too easy. And love doesn’t choose to destroy. How can I find it in me to forgive the monster and the broken boy. The one who couldn’t see past his own pain. Love has a language fear could never know.…

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Direct Attack

You tear me down with memories. I hate how it just wasn’t meant to be. Only see you through a golden lens. Making more enemies from previous friends. You’re toxic to me but I kept coming back. Every word you say to me feels like a direct attack. I get mad and I get bitter……

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