chaos

Every day I try to feel a little safer… A little happier… And there are moments where…. It hits me in a sudden, beautiful way…. Every breath… Every step… I could never take for granted…. Even in the middle of a chaotic storm…. There’s love to be found… There’s compassion to be held… There’s kindness…

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pretend

I don’t fight the tears…. I’m letting go of those painful years… What I feel are the pages of my own story… Examining my own life and taking careful inventory…. I’ve lived for too long in fear… I had to be the one to take care…. And I know love is all that matters in…

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make

it’s just me… I have no defenses…. and no where to run away….. bare and awake… in the end…. you alone live the life you make….

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within me

You don’t love me… You love yourself… And I can’t help you… You need to help yourself… Your love is a pit… It destroys everything it touches…. For so long I laid there…. Believing I didn’t deserve any better… But somewhere along the line… I learned how to love myself…. And that changed everything… An…

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pain

too easily we forget… how human we all are…. the pain runs in my veins as it does yours… and for all I know… and for all I will ever know… let love be the reason I choose to live… every second I have…

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it hurts me

scars along my heart leading back to birth… there are questions I’ll never know the answers to upon this earth… and I still wonder why they left me abandoned… why there were no good byes and love letters and… I don’t know if I’ll ever truly get over losing you… because I never knew you……

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never the same

he always cared about presenting perfect appearances…. but he never cared long enough for my own disappearances… put me on a shelf only to control every thought and action… but he wouldn’t even blink when he cut me into a million tiny fractions…. he raised me to believe I only was worth what I could…

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