richer

I lived in a fantasy world… And I didn’t want to leave…. I could close my eyes… And escape reality…. In this world I was loved and adored perfectly… But in this world…this version of “love” was never free… I shut off my heart and closed off my emotions… A fake smile and rehearsed laughter…kept…

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fail to see

the more you hurt me… the more I return.. the more you drag me down… the more I feel safe and sound… the more you scream my name… the more I lose myself in your blame… the more you play endless mind games… the more I sink into self perpetuating shame… the more you laugh…

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falling

life is tears… life is madness… life is hope… life is running sadness… life is love… life is scars… life is falling… life is where you are…

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chaos

Every day I try to feel a little safer… A little happier… And there are moments where…. It hits me in a sudden, beautiful way…. Every breath… Every step… I could never take for granted…. Even in the middle of a chaotic storm…. There’s love to be found… There’s compassion to be held… There’s kindness…

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pretend

I don’t fight the tears…. I’m letting go of those painful years… What I feel are the pages of my own story… Examining my own life and taking careful inventory…. I’ve lived for too long in fear… I had to be the one to take care…. And I know love is all that matters in…

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make

it’s just me… I have no defenses…. and no where to run away….. bare and awake… in the end…. you alone live the life you make….

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within me

You don’t love me… You love yourself… And I can’t help you… You need to help yourself… Your love is a pit… It destroys everything it touches…. For so long I laid there…. Believing I didn’t deserve any better… But somewhere along the line… I learned how to love myself…. And that changed everything… An…

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