Stars and Lights

Give me fear and let your roots grow in me year after year. There are times I wonder…if the pain between us was all we ever shared. I used to be angry every single day, underneath the anger all I felt was pain. Trying to control or change you, every effort to eliminate my anxiety…

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Never Free

I’m sitting with the pain I feel in broken memories… Feeling lost when my dearest of friends became my enemies. And I close my heart against the pain. Struggling to try to think differently, to somehow reframe. The mind can make a refuge in a nightmare, and a nightmare in a paradise. How can I…

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Unloved

You taught me… Love was fear. Fear was love. You told me… Shut up, don’t make a sound. So I kept quiet. You told me… Bow my head, keep my eyes to the ground. So I showed my submission. You told me… Don’t go another way. So I stayed. You told me… Don’t think, put…

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Acceptance

Give me a palace & a plan but it won’t fill my heart with happiness. Caught up in “ifs” & “thens” until the day light breaks… If I could only…. If I just had… Then I’d be happy…then I’d be alright… Before inner change can happen, I ask myself what do I invite Into my…

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White Boxes

Your dark eyes only see through a lens of infinite, unbreakable glass boxes. My fingertips lightly trace the smooth mirrors of every little box. My hazel eyes follow the intricate, masterful architectural design. Impossibly perfect in glacial, calculated measurements. Precise to the millimeter. The surface unnervingly immaculate, & the empty air within each one crystal…

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Headspace

Remember it’s all just an illusion….. I’m alone but not lonely in the space created by my own thoughts & memories. Perfect white glass walls & untouchable, parallel realities…my version of the events in personal, truthful commentaries. Tears of joy blur into tears of realization. I stopped living comfortably in my own denial & that…

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Disappear

All roads leading back to you disappear wordlessly in the night… All memories I have of your violence fades behind me in broken, golden lined hearts. The darkness left me when I embraced all of my tears. You pinned these butterfly wings under threats & intimidation but I know your own truth. You never had…

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