never the same

he always cared about presenting perfect appearances…. but he never cared long enough for my own disappearances… put me on a shelf only to control every thought and action… but he wouldn’t even blink when he cut me into a million tiny fractions…. he raised me to believe I only was worth what I could…

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clean slate

the past is gone…. the future lays ahead… today and this moment is where I create a fresh start… letting go of what I no longer need… steps towards a new life…

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okay

lost myself in hazy visions.. but still don’t want to be part of your predictions… there’s an emptiness in me I thought you could fill… but the more I gave into you, the more in me I killed… it takes everything in me to stay away… but you do what you must to finally be…

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embrace

you’re just a pretty face… with a past you only want to erase… your presence left a painful trace… all I ever wanted was a safe and loving place… one I believed I had to relentlessly chase… but my own heart and truth… I had to fearlessly embrace…

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you

working on myself but I wish it wasn’t so much… it’s hard not to feel guilty for what I’ve done and what I failed to do… I don’t understand so much of the past and you… I don’t know why it’s a struggle to be myself and feel true… I lost me in you… I…

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have me

I grew up without knowing what I needed… But I thought I had what I always wanted… Love back then was paper thin and empty… But I thought it was better than having nothing… Now I know… I’d rather have me than strangers who have holes for hearts… At the end of the day… I’d…

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fabrication

life is a gift but you saw it as a game… and I wish I could have still looked at you the same… but the facade disappeared with my love for you… and I’m still praying you find peace in the deeds you continue to do… the fear and rage in your heart is panic…

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