Love, not fear

Illusions of you once delicately etched on the mirrored glass across my heart. Love, show me a better way back to you…the place where emptiness finally departs. You were the poison I didn’t know how to walk away from in the end. Even with distance & time, there are parts of me to care for…

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Mystery

Designing a new reality… My shadows lost all powers to imprison me. Fragile, life changing moments & a portrait of something inhuman in your eyes. Childhood roots generations deep & untold truths beneath a perfect, white disguise. I once poured my cup endlessly of the kinds of poisons my heart knew would never fill these…

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Raised Me

I never met you in real life, & it hurts to imagine a different family. There’s parts of me too broken & displaced to wrap my head around my adolescent calamity. I wonder of the choices she made to selflessly protect her baby girl, to ultimately provide her with a life she was not able to give.…

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Motivation

See the same look in your eyes as I did that night, shadows crossing over veiled thoughts & what I say is still left to your own interpretation. Even now, not sure if I once saw pain, desire, or simple manipulation. Grew up in a home where feelings were used as weapons & every where…

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Missing

Emptiness….paralyzes every emotion until I don’t feel the pain sinking too far in. A thousand moments sit on my chest & I don’t know how to break the hold despair has on me to finally win. It’s never enough….never enough because deep down I don’t believe I’m worthy of love, so I settle for paper…

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