blade

those thoughts…. were drenched and soaked in suicide… those thoughts…. buried themselves deep until every part of me wished to hide…. a world and a lifetime ago… secrets he’ll never truly know…. his abuse made me want to end it all… but in those times I…. blamed myself for the fall…. I was angry… I…

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Nothing Lasts Forever

Had a thought the other day…. And my mind couldn’t think of the words you used to say…. Nothing lasts forever, even the pain faded into dust and skeletons… Love not fear now is the only medicine…. I’m walking away from the only life I’ve ever known…. Started to love myself and my old identity…

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good bye

Dear the old me…. I want to start off by saying I love you and I always will…. The pain of losing you isn’t ever lost on me…. I know it will hurt for a long time…. A part of me is dying and it feels devastating…. So much becomes lost in translation…. I didn’t…I…

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see

living with you was a dream wrapped in nightmares… my heart and soul never felt so alone… but you took away my agency to break free… and only I truly know the damage it did to me…. but the worst part of it was believing this was love…. everything upside down… where my feet never…

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how long will you love me

how long will you love me… words spoken from a song… but the meaning left too soon… and you didn’t stay for long… wasn’t I worth fighting for…. wasn’t I worth holding onto… I’ll always wonder…. how you saw me from your view…

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choosing me

He lived in a shadowed world… A heart full of pain turned empty and cold… The past grew the rage in him until… His love and his life grew colorless and still… She didn’t stand a chance… Just another victim in his dark and distorted dance… But her pain would heal… Her life… He couldn’t…

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broken

I wish I had been good enough to be loved by you… But the cold truth is… No one is… No one is… And I can’t imagine living in your heart anymore… When you don’t know how to love me… You don’t know how to love you… And I did all I could to help…

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