promise

I wanted to make a promise… Not for anyone else… For me… For the rest of my life…. For as long as I live… I will love me unconditionally… I will take care of me completely… I don’t want to escape anymore… I don’t want to run away… The good, the bad, the real, the…

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stay

I don’t want you to leave…. No, I don’t want you to go… You say…. You love me more than I could ever truly know…. But you’re there… And I’m here… No one ever promised… Love and life would be fair…. But you could be ten thousand miles away…. And I would count all the…

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Why

Why would you give up someone… If you loved them…. Why wouldn’t you fight to hell and back for them…. How could you give up so easily… Not put up a fight… No matter how I think of how you left me… No reason ever feels like it’s enough or right…. But maybe… I don’t…

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all I have

why did he leave her… why didn’t he stay… wasn’t I enough… for them to choose a different way… why they didn’t keep me… why I wasn’t enough…being me… I can’t let go of the impossible fantasy… one of a loving, beautiful family… wondering if… it all would have been different if they had… but…

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Dare to Love

Dare to love when your back is against the wall and you’ve lost your self to past memories…. Dare to love when your eyes are drowned in painful tears…. When you’ve become only broken and imprisoned by long and lonely years…. Dare to love as your breath is ending…. Dare to love as your life…

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everything

I couldn’t let you go…. Not for the longest time… You were always there… In the shadows and in my past… I loved a part of you… I hated the other…. In your eyes I saw someone I loved…. And someone I feared more than anything… For a time I believed in a lie… A…

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impasse

Hurts me to let you go…. You were all I ever knew and all I wanted once to know…. I held onto the past forever, frozen in a glass… But the steps I took only led me to an impossible impasse… I can’t live my life holding onto you… I can’t be free if I’m…

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never

I love… I… I loved you… Once before… But.. We stopped… And shut the door…. I fell for you… In a fantasy… And when I awoke… I knew it would… Never… Be…

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blade

those thoughts…. were drenched and soaked in suicide… those thoughts…. buried themselves deep until every part of me wished to hide…. a world and a lifetime ago… secrets he’ll never truly know…. his abuse made me want to end it all… but in those times I…. blamed myself for the fall…. I was angry… I…

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Nothing Lasts Forever

Had a thought the other day…. And my mind couldn’t think of the words you used to say…. Nothing lasts forever, even the pain faded into dust and skeletons… Love not fear now is the only medicine…. I’m walking away from the only life I’ve ever known…. Started to love myself and my old identity…

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