Anything

I would have given…. Anything back then to have one moment of real love from you…. But I never knew your heart could never hold any love…. Not for me…. Or for you…. I wonder… If you know how painful it is to endlessly want love from someone who can’t…. Can’t give it back… To…

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Wish

I can’t wish away my trauamas… But some days I do wish I could… And there are moments I want to run away from it all… And those moments where I don’t want to lose even a second of time… I may never know the answers to why people do what they do… And I…

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Connect

Human connection… Reminds me how fragile we are… How we all need one another… But the source of so much love and beauty… Can also bring so much pain and heartbreak… Connection is what we need… But fear keeps us alone… For so long I kept everyone in my life away… But it made me…

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Free

Would you rather be powerful…. Or free…. You win…. & I stay true to me…. I have no games… Only love… & shattered Golden frames… No longer perfect or… A prisoner of.. Generational shame… Just me… Completely… Me…

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Poison

The only regrets I had…. Were the ones where harm was done…. To me… To you… But I kept your wrongs on a list until… The words and memories poured bitterness and coldness into me… I couldn’t change you… Couldn’t change me so you would love me…. But I… Found a certain kind of peace….…

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Rose

Fading beauty…. Sparkling hopeful eyes… Experience of loss will eventually leave you forever changed and a little more wise…. Leaning into the pain…with heart beats and care… Only when we feel love do we allow ourselves to be vulnerable and bare… You can live your entire life guarded and alone if you choose… But if…

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Tears

I love… Every day life gives me… And I embrace a bigger truth beyond what I could ever see… For every darkness in this world I know there’s more and more light… In the most fragile of times… Don’t let hope fade from sight… Battles within are silent and deadly… But until you find inner…

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Need

What if I stopped needing you.. And started needing me instead… What if I was a good enough reason to just get out of bed… What if I didn’t need a perfect fairy tale ending… What if I chose to heal a little at a time and saw my heart as worthy of loving and…

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love you

I love you one second.. I leave you the next… I adore you for an hour… Then put you through endless tests… How I wish I could stop these automatic reactions… But it’s easier if every moment becomes a simple transaction… Then I don’t have to ever feel… And I could convince myself none of…

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First

Call it conditioning… Or cycles of shame… But they both linger… Because so many times I put myself first… Your voice echoes words of condemnation… Selfish… You called me… Who knew how words could wound… A scarlet letter engraved on the walls of a fearful heart…. Selfish… But… Then I think… Of how many times…

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