guilt trip

I always have a default setting in my mind…. Guilt…shame….suffering…. No matter how far I run away…. The same cycle is where I always find… But the more I deny the truth….the more it stays with me…. I run from you but then I keep believing in this fantasy… I wish I could take it…

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Trust

Trust is a hard thing to take care of.. When insecurity resides within…no reassurance is ever enough…. And I always had a million reasons to not believe in love and care… I just wish back then…broken glass hearts and empty eyes weren’t all our family shared… All I ever wanted was someone to be there….…

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Over

I lost a life… A childhood I will never get back… A baby girl given away in the hopes of a better life… To a man who could only use her and abuse her… I can’t change any of it… Even though my mind and heart have tried to countless times… I can’t undo what…

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walk away

walk away from the addictions and patterns you once knew.. remind yourself of everything that has changed and trust in your heart to know what to do… because if we only get this one chance to make it right… love is worth never giving up hope and ending the final fight…. life is what we…

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Unscripted

I knew every word and every ending… Of the stories I wrote in my head… But living a scripted life isn’t one you fall in love with… So I throw away the scripts and I abandon what I once wrote… To live and love and fly…

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Self Defenses

I want to be brave enough to feel… To let go and trust in what I know is real… Lay down all my defenses because I won’t play any more games… Some hearts never meant to be tamed… I love me and the way you loved me made me a better person in the end……

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Real Love

Used to play love like it was all just an empty game… Used to see every person as one and the very same… Never allowed myself to feel…. Never let in a love that was timeless and real… But you left and it changed everything… For the first time I felt the loss of a…

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only one

I learned… He is my only one… After he left me… The only one I’ll ever truly love… More than the world and everything in it… There’s no one else…. No one else who holds my heart… Only him…

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Guards

Never been afraid of love… Because I kept myself ten feet apart… But in this way love never stayed for long in my own heart… And you changed my life the moment that you left… But the memories and love I always…always kept…

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