just

Just let go… But I’m obsessed with the pain… I get in my way time and time again… Just stop… Just let me go…. Pain and hopeless thoughts cannot be all I know…. One step forward… Ten steps back… It’s too easy to think of all the ways… I truly lack… Anxiety gives everything a…

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numb

I do everything I can to avoid the pain… But nothing ever works when you’re the one running through my brain…. Lost track of the times I had to get away…. Lost track of times I numbed all of my emotions to feel okay…. Because I can’t get rid of this notion…. You’re somehow going…

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everything

When you didn’t want me… I didn’t want me… When you didn’t love me… I didn’t love me… When you didn’t care for me… I didn’t care for me… You were my world… I just mirrored everything you said and did… Everything you said and did…

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far

No emotion is permanent… But time and time again I feel over spent… I’m angry and a mess in the same breath… Still fighting off a feverish kind of sweat… And there you are…. A song and a step too far…

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Love

Feeling the weight of isolation…. But I’m not alone in this state across every nation…. And I reach for you but can’t quite touch… I lie and tell you I don’t need you that much… Never knew how deathly loneliness could be… Had to meet the most painful and dark parts of me… But there’s…

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more kind

Had another trigger today…. Wasn’t even thinking of you and then my focus went away…. Moments still push and pull upon my healing heart…. Even when I try to make a better life and new start…. I guess I have to take my time to feel the pain…. Maybe I’ll never forget you and trying…

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love me

he didn’t love me…. he didn’t accept me…. he didn’t see me… and it hurts me to this day… because every time someone tries to love me…. I don’t believe it… when love for so long felt like a lie…. one of false promises and deceptions…. I was lost in a world of pain…. and…

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