feel

his hate for me shined like black diamonds in his eyes… but to tell you the truth he hated himself more…but his heart knew only lies… I spent a lot of time in a prison no one else could see… and for even longer I believed he would be the one I needed to free……

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be

underneath layers…. we are more alike than different in our fears, desires, hopes, motivations… compassion, love, kindness…at times requires no explanations… simple acts and words can make all the difference… all too often we lose and miss our own hopes and innocence…. life never promised anything with certain guarantees… sometimes you just have to let…

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minutes

need a minute…. a second just to breathe… because everything you tell me… shattered my notions of reality… and I struggle to admit when I’m wrong… the person I thought you were…wasn’t true all along… it’s easier to put you in a box…as if that’s all of who you are… but the complicated nature and…

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you matter

I never wanted to go back to that place ever again… The place where he broke me so many times… Where even the smallest slight…the tiniest of words could just completely shatter me… I didn’t ask to be treated this way… I didn’t sign up to be torn down with every possible method… There was…

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okay

I’m speechless… Don’t even know what to say… To see someone break… I don’t even… It’s difficult to watch… I can’t help but be affected… Never what I could ever imagine…. Not close to what I expected… I just hope you’re okay… Wishing you peace and love and healing each and every day…

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choose

you’re not enough… you’re a little fucked up… you’re worthless… you’re no good… you never do and act as you need to and should… well… I guess that’s your reality… but I’m not going to fight you to be me… and I’m not going to prove anything to you either… they all turned away and…

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too much

you’re a little too loud honey… good let me turn it up… you’re a little too selfish baby… perfect, let me fill my own cup… you’re a little… no I’m not… what you say I am and even so it doesn’t matter… you’re not the one I need to please, pacify, or flatter… my voice…

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playing pretend

innocence wasn’t meant to last… falling a little too far and fast… close my eyes but never my heart… fully conscious every time you tore it all apart… but I’ll thank you in the end… when your fears introduced me to a way to stop… playing pretend….

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my name

he was a fucked up person… and he fucked me up too… but the past doesn’t determine your future… you have the right to choose… if you are more than your pain… after all the storms and trauma… you have sunshine with the rain… it’s painful and beautiful all the same… love was always written…

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true

I’m going to say what you don’t want to hear…. I’m going to tell you how it truly is when reality is what you fear… But I’m not going to apologize for being me… I’m not going to let you be the lens through which I always see… It’s too exhausting to play a part…

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