last goodbye

it still hurts when I think of you… it still makes me angry… and I try…. try to forget… forget all you did… I guess after all this time I still care…. I care that I never received your love… I care that the love you did give me was never enough… I care that…

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completely

torn between my heart and my head… thoughts racing between emotions and wondering of the kind of life I’ve led…. no one’s perfect, this I know… the guilt and shame run too easily in the background.. but maybe in time the pain will fade… no more nightmares or fearing a hidden blade… I just want…

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be loved

you’re brave and I’ll never forget that…. it’s inspiring to have someone to believe in… and I see the good in what you do… you remind me that courage also comes from a place of vulnerability… I keep replaying memories and they feel precious and rare to me now… be well… be loved… be happy…

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in time

time will heal these wounds… time will fade the memories… time will give me distance… time will give me peace… time will allow me to move on… time will allow me to let go… time will…

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days

cycles and cycles… but I don’t want to believe… fear and hatred… are all my heart could receive… life doesn’t have to be this way… there’s more love and compassion in the remainder of all of our days…  

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Give

Time is passing… I have to find a way to cherish these moments, instead of thinking of not having… No one knows how many days we have left to live… I want to live a life where I have love and kindness to give….    

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fly free

a person isn’t a product you can buy and replace… memories, despite all your efforts…are difficult to erase… people act in fear and call it love when they can’t face reality… but hiding in pain and denial…you’ll never fly free…  

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feel

his hate for me shined like black diamonds in his eyes… but to tell you the truth he hated himself more…but his heart knew only lies… I spent a lot of time in a prison no one else could see… and for even longer I believed he would be the one I needed to free……

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be

underneath layers…. we are more alike than different in our fears, desires, hopes, motivations… compassion, love, kindness…at times requires no explanations… simple acts and words can make all the difference… all too often we lose and miss our own hopes and innocence…. life never promised anything with certain guarantees… sometimes you just have to let…

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minutes

need a minute…. a second just to breathe… because everything you tell me… shattered my notions of reality… and I struggle to admit when I’m wrong… the person I thought you were…wasn’t true all along… it’s easier to put you in a box…as if that’s all of who you are… but the complicated nature and…

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