lost

you’re not the man I thought you were… loved you completely but all you could talk about at the end was her… and I’m broken beyond words…beyond all explanations…. but in order to heal I have to feel all these painful feelings and cold sensations… I could write a thousand letters I will never send……

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moving on

there’s a new, brighter future ahead of me… the past me doesn’t know what I’ve become… all my strength and courage from the adversity… cleared away all the debris and distractions… the past me doesn’t know the future I now believe in… the past me doesn’t know the life I now live in…. for so…

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life

it was a gift…. one he unknowingly gave to me… the polar extremes… the highs and lows…. introduced me to… how to truly cherish life… how it could end in a moment…. how the most beautiful things are in…. the love and kindness we give to each other…. not in material things… not in power…

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end

I lived forever in a world only existing in his mind…. It always felt like it all was ending…. Black and white extremes… Never did I think I’d make it to the other side of pain… And find love…. A love I always needed… When I found a safe place… One where everything was going…

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nightmares

you’ve been a part of my life for so long… I never questioned it… never thought I’d be without you…. you meant something to me…. I won’t deny it…. I won’t leave you with lies… we started with such promises and I… may always wonder where it all went so wrong… but somewhere along the…

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love me

I grew up…. No longer holding onto childish memories…. The fears once keeping me prisoner…. Disappear into nothing…. I grew up… And I didn’t need him the way he wanted me to need him…. I grew up… And he couldn’t let me go… So… There was a time… A very dark time… Where I thought…

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relief

I survived darker days… Breathed in heavier burdens… Moving forward I have to remind myself…. The worst lay far behind me… Healing isn’t a linear path… Sometimes your scars remind you of your coldest nights… But there was always hope…. A fragile light to cling onto…. Through the despair and grief…. The pain will not…

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forever

I saw the world in your eyes…. Drank in and fell in love with your many lies… And I… Would have given you everything just to see you smile…. But my soul and heart broke apart…. Mile after mile…. You can’t heal someone who doesn’t realize they are the one who is broken…. You can’t…

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okay

I’m hurting…. My feet don’t want to move…. My heart is tired… And exhausted from having to always prove… I don’t have any words I could say… To convince you to change or somehow stay…. But I know it’s better this way… I need me…. To heal and find a path to be okay…

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