place of love

I was born into fear… I carried it year after year… Life and love… Was a world away… And somewhere along my path…. I convinced myself it would never stop long enough to ever stay… But I’ve fallen in love with the person I long abandoned… Here in my own heart… He taught me how…

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once again

I’m not afraid to die… But I never knew… I was afraid to live… Afraid of love… Every action and choice I made… Was out of my own fears… To stay in a place of slow eventual death… Self destructive in a romantic way… But I never knew… It would all change when I found…

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kaleidoscope of memories

maybe… what we had wasn’t like the movies… instead it was… imperfectly flawed. messy. confusing. raw. broken. my mind now sees a more realistic portrait of the past. one no longer colored in the extreme… or tainted by the pain. it was what it was… I see every shade of emotion in flashes across your…

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shine the brightest

when you’re hurting your world becomes smaller and smaller every moment… until every word and every thought is a strategic move against you… your mind paints beautiful false illusions… twisting and turning the reality around you… until you believe the lies… everyone is out to harm you… everything is an adversary… walls wired with defenses…

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good guy

violence in your eyes… gets to me every time. when you convince me this is love again. extremes and intensity in the moments i remember when… you were playing the “good” guy in my life. it kills me knowing what you did to us and to your own wife. i couldn’t walk away then, no…

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Begin to Grow

Every time I think of him… I can only remember the ways he hurt me. In my own field of vision…the pain is all I can see. I guess we all have blindspots of our own to evaluate. Took me a while to trade in all my tears and remaining hate. The truth is I…

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Reach You

Words never reach you… You’re in a world far from this one. No matter what I say, You don’t see my pain. You don’t see any of my pain. And I’m stopped trying to tell you… Of the love lost in forgotten moments. How can I regret what I never had… I never knew you.…

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Reflections

Different reflections, the light pouring in. The old me found every way to let fear win. Cold hands run over glass, my breath in clouds on the pane. When I first started this journey… Never knew it would leave me completely changed.

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