fabricated fears

you shouldn’t talk to me like we’re familiar… tones in your voice and the hope for love is too similar…. you make it harder to walk away… torn between leaving and the desire to stay… eighteen years old was the age I first left home to escape… but your nightmares were the ones I unknowingly…

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no longer do i keep

she struggled to see the beauty in her own eyes… all the words he filled her head with left lingering doubts and tragic lies. she ran away from herself to find a safe place. cruelty and kindness painted the curves and shadows of his face. he tried to create a void within her heart to…

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haunting

I love you. I miss you. It’s hard not to think of you. Love can’t be love when it’s purely addicting. My head and my heart still relentlessly conflicting. One way relationships are haunting… The way you speak of her is taunting… Only when it hurts me with the reality of what this is, and…

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Commiserate

Never thought I could hate… I don’t want to see myself in this state. The shame, guilt, and pain you give me feels innate. But you have more than enough on your own plate. Sitting across from you, I don’t even know how to commiserate. The shadows you give me seem to consequently proliferate.  …

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In my Mind

Struggle against you… From the pull you have on me. These thoughts… They run around obsessively. Close the door, but I thought you wouldn’t let me go. Is there any love beneath the care you don’t show? And it’s better to leave than be…left behind. All my memories of you exist only in my mind.

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Want to Care

No more reality, my mind doesn’t want to care. When we went our separate ways, how did you inevitably fare? Write me another song and make it real. Falling in love with you…was never part of the deal. Why I care when you’re a world away. Pretend. Pretend to be indifferent with the words you…

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