wish it was easy… but that’s never how love is going to be… once you love someone you can’t unknow them even when you try…. I could spend forever in a room of what ifs and untouchable whys… you were always the one I thought…who could lift me up to one day fly… no matter…

The mind can invent such beautiful realities… Some made more bright with time and an elusive sweet melody… I struggle with my own self doubts and fears of having no securities… I’m no hero… I’m no villain… I’m no victim… I’m just human…. With a shattered but healing heart…. Time and love heal the wounds…

it’s easy to break someone… to steal all their happiness and joy… it’s a coward’s default of choices… to shatter and completely destroy… behind it all… love catches you in the dark… free fall… but there’s hope in another day… let it happen… come what may….

you have a life ahead of you… you just have to take a small step… but all of what you know… won’t let you go quite yet… I can’t beat my conditioning… When it runs through every part of me… Every single time I try… His voice is echoing from the past… Telling me who…

love me… leave me more… set me free… shut and lock the door… who was wrong… who was right… why can’t I just walk away… from this futile fight… I guess… This ending… Won’t do…. I have to choose between you and me… To which only one… I’ll be true…

I see his rejection of me in men I don’t even know… I play out my own abandonment before I give anyone the chance to show…. To me… I was always waiting for the world to fall apart… But the harder I tried to erase him… The deeper and further he stayed within my own…

love is everything… even when you have nothing to lose… love…will be the one I forever choose… and I close my eyes tonight… fear and pain still within sight… but there’s light on the horizon… there’s you, the lies and… my impossible hopes and desires… you either ignite or diminish these fires…

you are the center of your own universe… but your ego and mentality…they were your only true tragic ending curse… every word, every move… feels overly rehearsed… there’s no air to breathe around your space… even now… time and distance… erased…

Back then… I was in a self destructive tidal wave… And every part of me believed I needed to be saved… But the abuse kept my heart and my mind imprisoned in a safe… We live in a world of the choices we alone decide to make… And love is no longer something I have…

Had a dream of you but it’s not the same… Only have myself and my thoughts to blame… Battling with my past and my present but it all feels so tame… I’m not the person I was when I was desperate for someone to care… Back then I looked outside myself for you to show…