peace

It’s a whole new world when you no longer need to fill the emptiness inside… When you embrace your fears and have nothing left to really hide… There’s still an internal struggle, one I have to own… The difference now I no longer feel like I’m not enough and alone… Take care of yourself in…

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matters

I want to leave and never return to the old days… But my mind doesn’t accept the messages and your voice continues to stay… The dreams and past left on replay… Replay… Circular thoughts and patterns… As my love struggles to find what truly matters…

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anymore

I’m up and down I know… My thoughts and feelings too afraid to clearly show… I hate how I made excuses for my mistakes… But I regret the times I thought love was what I had to fake… I only wanted to make it right… You held me in tears throughout the night… And I…

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same

I look within and try not to hate who I see… But the doubt and fear pulls at me constantly… And I never wanted to lose myself to the pain… All my efforts and dreams seem to fall away in vain… Trying to see the sunshine through the clouded sky and cold rain… You and…

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test

I’m disappointed in myself… Trying to forget you and think of something else… Because the memories only haunt the worst parts of me… And then all the pain and bitterness becomes all I can see… I didn’t want to look back on my life with regrets… The love I have for you hasn’t quite disappeared…

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along the way

there are times I’m more than a little scared and insecure… when all I ever knew was restricted and insular… where the thoughts I have turn dark and negative… but that’s an old and worn narrative… besides it’s all relative… in those times I just refocus and think of what I’ve done to get this…

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prepared

your promises sound more like a dare. but what’s beneath the mask you wear? left a little vulnerable and bare. intimacy and connection never shared. defenses readily prepared.    

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End This

I’m honest…even when it hurts. You know the saying…we all get our just deserts. And I stopped trusting in you when I got burned. But I kept coming back and I guess I never learned. All I hear is disapproval whenever you try to sound concerned. I’m just someone who won’t get over being spurned.…

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