just

just give me your love… as if… our heart beats were one… and take me to a loving place… where our story somehow beat all odds and beautifully won… because I can’t even imagine one day… without you there… my memories… holding to the future we no longer share… I was selfish… I was lost……

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everything

I wanted… Everything… Sunshine and gold… But when your attention is elsewhere… You never cherish the love you hold… And it was selfish of me to think…. You’d always be there when… Our love was shattered in a blink… And I disappeared in day dreams when I ran from the pain…. Pain in a heavy…

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perfect

in my mind it could never be perfect…. fantasy and delusions come from the fallout of emptiness & neglect…. but I don’t want to be the person I once was…. staying in familiar patterns when comfort was easy because…. I set myself up to fail every time when I choose fear…. insecurities and pain always…

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Sabotage

I end any chance I have for love… Before it begins… Because my heart knows… Love always ends… And these self defenses have been with me for as long as I can remember… For so long fighting to be alone…. When all this time… I needed love the most… So long pretending… I didn’t need…

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Shine

Wounds run deep… Nightmares of the past overshadow my sleep… And the pain and my love are the ones I keep…. Push love away when my heart doesn’t believe… I’m worthy enough to ever fully receive…. And the old me… Needed you to need me… But in this never ending dance… I could never be…

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golden

I didn’t want to see it…. The dark shades in my heart…. Ones where I hurt myself… And hurt others… I drank my own poison… Long after childhood memories… And I made excuses and shifted the blame… When I was the one who chose not to fly free… My life shattered completely apart…. Then love……

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selfish

so many tears… for the love I failed to have…. forever chasing after… the love they could never give…. I became someone I didn’t know… trading love for attention… care for obsession… and sorry doesn’t quite cover all the wrongs… but I hope you know… there is only one here… in my heart… I got…

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melody

tried to write myself in a simple happily ever after… memories blurred in the edges of pain and loud laughter… but when my heart was lost…. couldn’t know then the hidden cost… in your eyes I saw my world shatter… in the end… you were all that ever… mattered…

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simple

it’s never quite simple… never more than sweet… and you were… someone I was too afraid to ever… keep… wedding rings… vows and tears to one day bring… but with you… I never regretted a thing…

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keep

I walked away from everyone I’ve ever loved… And I created a world of distance when I couldn’t feel good enough…. I sip sorrow more easily than happiness… And I abandon everything to pretend I don’t miss… The love I can’t ever let myself feel… Convinced too long ago… Love… Could never be real…

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