Free

He may have made you feel helpless… But the more he killed you…his heart felt less and less… He may have tried to keep you under lock and key… But in the end it was him who never found a way to be free… He may have silenced your voice… But no matter what he…

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Keep

I kept the pain in a locket around a heart that refused to feel… Any promise of love was quickly dismissed and seen as pretend and unreal… I told myself I’ll never let anyone close enough to hurt me the way he did…but even now I know it was a lie… Because the deepest fear…

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Destroy

I kill any chance of happiness before I can ever have it in my hands… Because a deep and painful fear won’t ever let love take a stand… And I break apart promises and connections to keep myself safe and sound… But after cutting off everyone and everything I ever cared for…desolation and suffering was…

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happy

We all just want a little piece of happiness…something to hold onto… But everytime I feel joy…my heart quickly takes a darker view… Write me out of a disappearing past… Moments slip away too soon before they ever last… We see our own pain in another…pain we hope will one day heal… But the only…

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Real

Sing aloud without any fears… Feel it all…the despair, joy, and the tears.. Because life never followed a perfect plan to every detail and note… But in these pages…are stories her heart shamelessly wrote… It’s okay to be afraid…but fear is a talented deceiver… Sometimes miracles and love show up when you let go and…

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Men

Ever since I was young…I’ve feared men and their intentions… Too many experiences where harm was done to me with no interventions… The pain always returns to its source… But for so long my fears have controlled my life’s course… But all men aren’t the same… And I no longer want to live in these…

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Perfect

Set a table… Make it nice… Breathe deeply… Throw of the dice… Perfect lies… Sound so sweet… Her heart designed to defy… I don’t want to be perfect anymore… I don’t want my parents’ legacy to be the future I choose to live for… I’m no longer alone…no longer afraid… Let whatever wrongs against me…

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Tomorrow

You loved me when I couldn’t love myself… A dark remedy of sweet and sad memories… When did a moment become an addictive dependency… I’ll never know… Always hope you are well… As the last of these feelings fade… You deserve all the happiness this life has to offer… And I hope you find it…

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Resistance

I was resistant to changing… My excuses motivated to shift all the blame… But the only way forward is to finally… Leave the game…. I see a brighter life ahead of me… Finally embracing everything…. The emptiness we carry can never be filled by fantasies… But embracing the love, pain and joy…can we find a…

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Sick

Old ways leave me feeling sick… Addictive patterns are a hard habit to permanently kick… But my heart can’t take living in this way… Sometimes you have to let go to cherish a new beginning and brighter days… The terrified little girl in me that once was helpless and powerless… It’s time to say goodbye…

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