Fly

I was wrong about… Everything… When I believed the stories I told myself… Because I wanted to believe in fairy tales… But there’s so much left to heal… But no longer do I… Wish for someone else to save me… When I need to save myself… From running away from life… And hiding… I loved…

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real

I can’t… Fit into this perfect picture… Though many times I tried… And I can’t… Cut off or erase parts of me…. Too long I’ve had to hide… I played innocent to survive… The cruelty in his eyes… But years after the endless nights…. My heart wants no more of disguise… If I have to…

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A little

Dreaming of… A life that could be… So lost in… A loving… Reality… For so long hiding… Running from the pain…. Only to find myself… In circles… Again and again… Tried to stop loving you… Tried to walk away… But after so long we… Found our own reasons to stay…. And love is not always…

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Glamorize

The mind likes to paint such priceless pictures… And in everyone of them… An illusion of perfection was all I saw…. A life of… Pure fantasy…. One that could never be… Real…. Sometimes we lie to our own hearts… We bathe in regrets… We glamorize the past… But now I know… Real love… Isn’t wanting…

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Life

I want to run away sometimes… Thinking it will be easier this way… But the pain and the tears follow… And pretending they don’t exist… Allows the memories to remain… Long past their stay…. Life is pain… Life is heartbreak… But escaping…. Doesn’t heal the traumas… Numbing won’t make the triggers stop… So I lean…

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Wings

I try…. To forget all the ways…. It hurt me to…. Forget you… When the memories…. Became washed with endless tears…. I thought it was easier to…. Lose myself in the pain…. To just…. Stop…. Stop living…. Stop dreaming… Stop loving…. And fall into a dream…. Where you stayed…. Stayed… But I… Can’t change the…

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Poisons

I wrapped myself in such a beautiful world…. A perfect fantasy…. Where I could never feel… Alone…. And I lost myself in… Glittering shades of a fool’s paradise… Because I couldn’t ever…. Let myself… Be loved…. I didn’t want to…. Feel….. And you can’t have love… If you live in a golden cage…. And I…

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Loss

I don’t want to ever lose you…. Again…. Because…. I don’t even know how I survived it the first time… So… When I saw you…. This familiar panic…. Settles in…. Then… A part of me still shattered…. Will do anything to run… Escape… Not feel those feelings… Not face those wounds…. Not live….. Not love……

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Beginnings

I got tired of… Writing about you…. Of being caught in this endless…. Story… Where I couldn’t find… Closure…. There was always a part of me… Back then… Wishing for a second chance…. As the memories played over… And over…. But I don’t live there anymore…. Willingly…. Confidently…. Closing the door…. I don’t feel the…

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Scared

Being brave… Doesn’t mean you don’t feel fear…. And being brave… Doesn’t mean you are free from the tears… Looked into his eyes that fateful night…. And saw… A blackness I could never forget…. What he did wasn’t right…. What is darkness… What is light… It was a coldness… A pure indifference to another’s suffering….…

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