love shouldn’t…

love shouldn’t feel dangerous…. love shouldn’t feel lethal…. love shouldn’t feel cold… love shouldn’t feel empty…. love shouldn’t feel hollow… love shouldn’t feel superficial…. love shouldn’t feel unstable…. love shouldn’t feel volatile…. love shouldn’t feel conditional… love shouldn’t feel hopeless… love shouldn’t feel miserable… love shouldn’t feel draining… love shouldn’t feel life taking…. then maybe….…

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save me

I’m cutting off my life support on the fears I lived for… I’m disconnecting my need for outside validation and conditional love… I’m ending my toxic relationship with misery… Back then… Attention, even harmful attention, was life to me… It meant I was able to survive… But in that old life I was always dying…

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care

I love you and it’s so clearly there to be seen… Two hearts and minds on the same team… For I will always cherish you there… You were the one who was brave enough to stay and to care…

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fully free

I laugh more to ease the pain… And I forget the sounds of endless rain… Let me keep the moments of love close… Let there be nothing but kindness in the letters you enclose… I hope where ever you are… you are smiling… The tears and loss I’m no longer denying… But acceptance comes unexpectedly….…

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broken

I wish I had been good enough to be loved by you… But the cold truth is… No one is… No one is… And I can’t imagine living in your heart anymore… When you don’t know how to love me… You don’t know how to love you… And I did all I could to help…

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raw

My wounds are still raw… Fragile and delicate… Paper thin layers healing the surface… But still healing… I grew up without love… Eventually I believed I could live without it… Maybe that’s why I fear it the most… When I know deep down… It’s all I will ever need… Nothing else could ever fill that…

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home

He didn’t give me a choice…. He stole away my consent… And I… I’m still grieving over the life he took… And I… Still cry tears filled with unhealed pain… I never had a choice… He stole it from me… And now… The thing that scares me the most is… Having one… Having a choice….…

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