Commiserate

Never thought I could hate… I don’t want to see myself in this state. The shame, guilt, and pain you give me feels innate. But you have more than enough on your own plate. Sitting across from you, I don’t even know how to commiserate. The shadows you give me seem to consequently proliferate.  …

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You didn’t want to stay…

I’m left broken but I don’t want to change. I tell my story and the ending is always the same. My heart can’t figure out why… You let me go, you didn’t even try. How can you call it love when it feels like this. And all the cruel parts of you are what I…

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Display

Tell me how much you hate me. Make the words stay. I see it in your eyes… You don’t have to put your love on display. Because you don’t know how to love someone like me… Repeat it back twice, the pain captured my melody. You’re too much…. Too much for a heart that’s broken…

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Just like you planned

No one can hate me the way I can. I’m my number one enemy and my number one fan. What you don’t say kills me just like you planned. Even if you were here I don’t think you’d ever understand. It’s a one way relationship and there’s nothing more left in me. I’m more used…

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In my Mind

Struggle against you… From the pull you have on me. These thoughts… They run around obsessively. Close the door, but I thought you wouldn’t let me go. Is there any love beneath the care you don’t show? And it’s better to leave than be…left behind. All my memories of you exist only in my mind.

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Want to Care

No more reality, my mind doesn’t want to care. When we went our separate ways, how did you inevitably fare? Write me another song and make it real. Falling in love with you…was never part of the deal. Why I care when you’re a world away. Pretend. Pretend to be indifferent with the words you…

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Left Me

Try to numb myself from the pain. Addiction knows no other way. Why do I need you to care? You’re still on the clothes and make up I wear. I love you and I hate you too. If you could see what you put me through. Dig a hole deeper. Happiness doesn’t want to keep…

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