Family

I’m sitting across an empty table staring at the memories…& one by one they softly leave. I guess grief is a process and I’ll slowly find healing through moments of relief. I had this fantasy in my mind, it just wasn’t ever real. In your eyes I saw the truth & you never could give…

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Psychology

I overreact every single time, a chemical instinct sparked by fear. In my mind I fabricate an underlying intention & my confidence disappears. Blame found in fantasy & reality, how do I begin to separate? No matter how I try, lashing out like a hurt child is the response my heart involuntarily reciprocates. Don’t tell…

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What You Never Had

Wanting to be needed…like a forbidden rush of drugs to a lifelong addict. It’s never enough, but the endless cycle carries the confessions of a devoted fanatic. I wanted you to want me, but my heart needed to be free. I became everything you wanted & killed the voice inside of me. There’s a difference…

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What I Love

I don’t know how to follow a heart I gave up on…my mind & motivations seem a world away and too far gone. His words are poison to my brain, infecting every thought with self doubt. I look in the mirror & I don’t even know what I’m all about. Turn up the music, drown…

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White & Pink

Laying in emotionless hearts, encased in white & pink glass walls. Candy rings & sugar spun strings. Fragile tears dyed in water colored memories, tell me again the price of being free. A palace of gold hidden away from the light. Only you know the monsters that come out at night. Your voice is memorizing,…

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Walk Away

Desire falling from the dying fire in your eyes…golden embers detained delicately to smothering silence & rage. Your fingertips trace carelessly along blackened butterfly walls, a look of disbelief along the lines & curves of your face. You never thought I could….leave. Hearts break under the weight of simple, dangerous choices. We both met destiny…

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Breaking Through

I ran away to hide, to escape the eternal pain & grief I held inside. I never knew my healing was in the acceptance of everything lost to me. My life now meeting the place between free will & beautifully designed destiny. I can finally sleep at night without fearing you will be there. I’m…

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