dream

tell me this is all a dream… that none of it is real… tell me you don’t mean those words… reassure me love is what you still feel… because I can’t look in your eyes… when I feel the twists of every single lie… and I don’t know who you are anymore… when once you…

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bitter

the truth is a bitter taste… sipping red wine and tears… hourglass filled with missing memories and years… but my heart won’t grow cold… let me remain in the stories you told.. still.. pain and secrets heal and unfold… leave me with myself.. when I no longer want to need your help…

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last

give me… one last kiss… one last hug… one last memory… but it will never be enough… enough… because my home was in your arms…. and there I was yours… just give me… one last moment…. where everything was love… before our hearts were broken… before our fears were woken… before words we can never…

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okay

pretending for a moment… we could be okay… that some word or action could undo it all… as if hearts could capture time… replaying ever painful word… refeeling every wound… seconds into hours into years…. but no one but me knows these shattered tears…

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unknowing you

wish it was easy… but that’s never how love is going to be… once you love someone you can’t unknow them even when you try…. I could spend forever in a room of what ifs and untouchable whys… you were always the one I thought…who could lift me up to one day fly… no matter…

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Gold

you have a heart of gold… made of compassion and kindness… you’re someone who has a timeless presence… one who is always sincerely missed… don’t for a second question your own worth and value… no matter what happens… no one could ever replace you… no one could ever replace you….

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happiness

why do I destroy any chance to let joy in… why do I allow my own despair to always win… fall into this situation every single time… my emotions always turning on a dime… because I can’t seem to sit with myself long enough to love me…. the only person I can’t get away to…

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enough

I’ll never believe…. I’m enough…. I’ll never let myself feel completely loved…. Because there’s just a deeper place of loneliness I keep inside… And I build prisons inside my mind… Ones perpetually cold and unkind… But it’s the only false sense of peace I know… I know….

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obsess

obsession isn’t love… but for the longest time I didn’t know… the difference between love that was real… and a love just for show… I just don’t want to be used in the end…. Delete all my messages after I hit unsend… Because I could hide forever in my pain… My heart drenched in a…

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bad dreams

I keep hearing him leave… And I wish it was just the traces of a bad dream… I lose myself in what used to be… But nothing and no one can replace him in my memories… And I keep telling myself what’s meant to be.. Will be…

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