judgement

you judge me until I can’t stand under the weight… you shame me until helplessness becomes my only repeating fate… and you can’t handle it if I make a single human mistake… I close my eyes as you continue to take and take… and all this…which you call love…feels empty and fake… fake… you set…

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Real

living in a glass world… empty hearts and fabricated minds indifferent and cold… just do as you are told… words echoing in my head… until I remember back then all I wanted… was to find peace in death but instead… life clung onto me… love doesn’t let go until you see… you’re all you ever…

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pedestals

we lifted one another just to break each other down…. we played with our hearts and passed our emotions around… perfect exists only in fantasy but it could never be real… numbing all my pain but we all just need to heal…. loving someone isn’t love when it’s all about control in the end… peace…

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trust

I never knew love… Growing up… I knew fear… But they called it love… And for a long time… I couldn’t forgive it…. I couldn’t let it go…. I held it…. I held the pain in my heart…. Until it turned into a poison… Turning everything good in my life to another layer of pain……

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real

I want a love that’s real…. Imperfect people… Imperfect lives… But love is everything… And I’ll believe that every single day I am alive… Real courage is choosing to do more than survive….

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for granted

I took you for granted… Made myself be too comfortable…. In knowing I always had you…. But then… You left and it shattered everything… It shattered my fantasy of love…. But now… I look at you…. With a completely different heart…. There’s not one second I take for granted…. If it’s by your side… I…

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blame

I blame myself for…. Everything…. I layer every silence with the guilt… My heart always brings… I stopped loving myself and everyone to stop the pain… But life… Without love… Never feels the same…

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want

pretty girls… perfect delicate curls… I got used to being played for so long… when you’re always playing mind games… they no longer feel wrong… but I’m not the past I lived through… fear doesn’t fill every cup I pour into… we are fated to live the lives we tie ourselves to… I see the…

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empty

nothing fills this emptiness… when it cuts too deep… tainting every dream and nightmare lingering…. in the moments of endless sleep… and nothing… fills the spaces of the love I never received…. but back then… the lies were what I needed to believe…. believe…

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forget us

never wanted to forget us…. never wanted to lose the feeling of your touch… never wanted to close my eyes alone… never wanted to end it all over the phone…. and I just… can’t imagine this life without you…. but we do… we do what we have to… and we can’t ever take it back……

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