Company

Fell from the stars & into a war zone. Did I even have a chance when my fractured heart was infinitely afraid of being left alone? No I didn’t ask for this kind of life but it was given to me. In the past, I believed a martyr was all I would ever be. Today…

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Ice

There was nothing in you to love… A cold, indifferent person. Every act of “kindness” was a manipulation. Every act of “remorse” was a lie. My heart hurts, not from losing you. From ever believing there was some real connection or person to lose in the first place. All of it feels… Superficial & emotionlessly…

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Mystery

Designing a new reality… My shadows lost all powers to imprison me. Fragile, life changing moments & a portrait of something inhuman in your eyes. Childhood roots generations deep & untold truths beneath a perfect, white disguise. I once poured my cup endlessly of the kinds of poisons my heart knew would never fill these…

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Headspace

Remember it’s all just an illusion….. I’m alone but not lonely in the space created by my own thoughts & memories. Perfect white glass walls & untouchable, parallel realities…my version of the events in personal, truthful commentaries. Tears of joy blur into tears of realization. I stopped living comfortably in my own denial & that…

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I Surrender

Time is forever fading away….moments & memories collected day by day. Human nature to worship conflict & pain. Without the intensity of it all,  the world seems too quiet & tame. I have no more self defenses, what you do, it hurts me through & through. I realize now the nature & nurture I’ve been…

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Raised Me

I never met you in real life, & it hurts to imagine a different family. There’s parts of me too broken & displaced to wrap my head around my adolescent calamity. I wonder of the choices she made to selflessly protect her baby girl, to ultimately provide her with a life she was not able to give.…

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Break

Some days I’m riding a smooth glass wave, sailing curves on a calm horizon. Every thought & emotion touched by golden, flowing waters. Some nights the promise of another morning drowns me with a heavy heart, eclipsed in a dark world of helplessness. It’s only an illusion…the mind creates what we see. But in those…

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